Ahhh dating, we have all done it at some time in our life and know that it is either fun or not so fun. This blog comes from my personal ideas of what I want when dating and what I have discovered I love about the process. I have come to realize finally that in order to enjoy dating you must tell yourself that you enjoy dating. As I have said many times before your life reflects how you think. I never allowed myself to enjoy dating in the past because in my mind I believed I hated it and that it was no fun to go through the uncomfortable process of meeting a stranger hoping to find love. There will always be an occasional “BAD” date and definitely uncomfortable moments but I believe that when you decide to change your thoughts in a positive way things not only become fun but interesting!
To start I have never been very good at getting a date. My girlfriends have said I don’t know how to flirt. I am always that one girl that stands in the back or off to the side never making eye contact because of being shy. My ex husband said he thought I was stuck up the first time he met me because of my being quiet and my stand-off-ish behavior. My guy friends have said that I don’t pay attention and that overlook the interested guys and the opportunity to get a date. I have discovered that once you embrace the idea many of these things fix themselves. Getting a date can be as easy as smiling and making eye contact with someone I am interested in, figuring out where to find these men of attraction is a bit more difficult especially at 44.
My thoughts of dating in this very moment are that it is to be fun, be light hearted, and I must NOT be focused on wanting to find love. I must allow time to happen and experiences to be as they are intended with no expectation knowing that if it is no longer fun I have the choice to move on.
I am in no way saying that I don’t want to be in a relationship nor that I’m not interested in finding love. What I am saying is that dating is not necessarily those things and it can actually be fun, but only when you decide in your own mind that it can be. I figure that if I spent half my life in relationships that I felt would not last and often was very unhappy in yet I stayed much longer than I should have…why not be single for a while and enjoy the experience solely for the sake of having fun and meeting new people. I am learning that many times a date or a few might lead to the knowledge of “this will never work” but can create a wonderful friendship.
I am a bit old fashion when it comes to dating, much like a young school girl in my thinking. I’m shy with many aspects of getting to know someone and I am always guarded when it comes to sex. The other night I had a conversation with a man and he assured me that ALL men want sex and have it on their mind especially in the beginning stages of dating. As a woman knowing this makes me a bit uncomfortable in how to act. I often find myself being more reserved because I don’t want my date to perceive through playful flirting I want to sleep with him. I was assured by my male friend that this is not the case with many women today and based on our conversation it is not uncommon for a woman to be intimate on the second or even first date.
While in the early stages of dating I prefer a guy to pursue me rather than my having to make an obvious effort although he will know that I am interested if I am. My dating style is to be patient and get to know the guy for a while before becoming intimate, I don’t care what anyone says I feel sex changes things.
With all that being said I thought I would make a list of the things I have discovered that I love about the very early stages of dating so here is that list…even at 44 this sounds a bit elementary.
*how good it feels when your date says “you’re really pretty”….and then says it again when he is walking away for the night
*when you get a text in the middle of the day you were not expecting that makes you smile and feel a little flushed at the same time
*when you look into the eyes of someone new that you are attracted to and feel excited knowing they are just as attracted to you as they look back
*when he purposely puts his arm around you for the first time and you realize how nice it feels
*how good flirting feels especially when it comes back to you
*the warmth of him sitting next to you without his actually touching you but your wanting him too
*anticipation of anything….and everything
*wanting him to hold your hand but waiting patiently for the moment to happen
*how even at 44 when a guy you have an interest in holds your hand for the first time and you still feel like that little girl did the first time a boy touched your hand under the table
*how on a blind date, if you are not interested or attracted you can still find humor in the situation and laugh about something, in that moment you realize it is a choice to either have fun…or not…or perhaps run
*when you realize he is not the right person as a mate but that you would love to be friends, he is mature enough (even if he wanted more) to realize a friendship could last a life time and quite possibly be better than a relationship ever could
*how silly, fun and often romantic it can be to share food
*how goofy I am while trying to find something sexy to wear for a date with someone I am interested in, if only there were a hidden camera
*the nervousness of that initial introduction and the gentle ease of conversation when you know it is going well
*the anticipation of a kiss, wondering when it might happen and when it finally does feeling the butterflies take flight
*when your eyes meet and you get a strange feeling of shyness and warmth at the same time
*learning about the other person and watching their lips as they talk
*catching your self looking at their butt as they walk off to the bathroom and thinking how hot they look
*every aspect of body language and how interesting it can be from a nervous chin rub, the constant twirling of a coaster or a leg that moves enough to shake the table
*laughing, laughing and more laughing
*loosing track of time because you are having so much fun and then realizing it is really late…or early the next day
*the first kiss
*being attracted..did I mention butterflies?
*the nervousness of having them over to your place for the first time
*catching him looking at your breasts, feeling awkward yet flattered especially if he smiles with the embarrassment of being caught
*meeting his friends and noticing the secret buddy language that says you are the man for being be seen with this hot woman
*the smell of a good cologne and how it makes you more attracted to him because of how good he smells
*trying a new restaurant that neither of you have been to before
*how a slight touch and smile makes you blush when you are really into him
*the hug on the second date when you walk into the room or answer the door
*talking and laughing until morning without intimacy being any part of the equation knowing that in time that will possibly be a part of the equation
*discovering he loves something that you do
*his saying at the end of the first date….I would like to see you again
So I realize that there could be a list of the bad but I want to remain positive in my current state. These are what things come to mind for now but there are sooo many more once you start to get your feet wet. So as I end this post let me say I am having so much fun and truly for the first time in my adult life enjoying the act of dating. What are your love’s I would enjoy knowing! Until next time I am sending love out to you all…thank you for reading!