• Vulnerability

    My best friend Big D…

    It has been difficult to keep my mind focused on work. Today the news came I have awaited for a week, my beloved pup of only 6 years has renal failure and will likely have to be put down sometime soon. My heart is breaking with the news and yet I know that life is once again teaching me something positive in a sea of what feels negative right now.  I have always thought of writing a book called “My Conversations with God.” It seems I have them often, when things are good and when things are bad. I have had numerous conversations with God lately, in the past week…

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    A new day….

    This morning I laid in bed and watched as the beautiful pink and purple colors surrounded the skyline. I felt completely relaxed, content, peaceful and happy. I watched as the light intensified into bright orange as the sunlight took over and a new day began….spring is in the air! Last night I awoke in the middle of the night gasping for air, my heart was beating fast and felt as though it would jump right out of my chest. It was one of those dreams where out of no where your body is reacting as if a tragic event has happened. I was crying, I was feeling deep sadness, hurt…

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    Marching on as I embrace age…

    March mark’s the beginning of spring, daylight savings time and my birthday. Most of my adult life I was never very excited about birthdays because I did not like the attention that they brought. When I hit 40 and kept hearing all my friends complain about the aging process, I decided I would embrace my age by celebrating so for a few years I really made the event public, had some big parties at the thinking diva treehouse and made the celebration last for weeks. The past few years I continue to embrace the changes that come with aging but I have again gone into a bit of hiding when…